delicious contrast to the silken threads of the spider's web delicately
clinging to my window.
My stomach really hurts. I am pained but not surprised what with the
combination of corn pancakes topped with sprinkles, spicy fish and tofu
soup, fried noodles and vegetables, hairy chunks of yak meat, and MSG,
not to mention enough sweet tea, butter tea, salt tea, and milk tea to
flood a small valley, having been ingested in the past few days. So it's
only crackers and sprite for now... okay what's a little more tea?
My body's rejection of my dietary habits have given me a blessed chance
to pause.
I once read somewhere that the Creator of all things is not only that,
He is apt to create anything. These past few days I've become convinced
of that reality... I live in the crevice of blinding contrasts that defy
the rule that the opposite and equal cannot both be true in the same
space. They can, and they are.
The same school that does not provide student housing with running water
is undergoing a curriculum revamp that requires their Chinese teachers
to learn Western educational techniques. Teacher's who never speak
English can, in English, attempt to persuade you to go to Karaoke with
them. This same country which wears western fast food chains like cheap
jewelry cannot seem to make a chocolate bar. The same street that hums
and honks at all hours of the day and night with traffic is periodically
forced to a standstill by lazy cows batting their eyes in the glare of
the afternoon sun. There are temples dedicated to the gods of alcohol
surprising the unsuspecting cyclist on a less traveled street and cars
with DVD players installed in the dashboard. Streets are marked with
human feces and frequented by students wearing the latest shoe fashions.
The same city that designs to build an underground walkway through busy
intersections cannot seem to clothe or feed it's ragged children. The
landscape is staggeringly majestic and the homes are pitifully bare. The
women's fingers are raw and chapped but such brands cannot hide her
illiteracy. Workers come to call minutes before class begins only to
drill holes through the door and leave, scatterings of sawdust and the
lingering smell of cigarette smoke the only evidence that my TV might
one day be upgraded to digital. I usually have access to internet but
cheese is as scare as if I lived on the ocean floor. Students who are
too shy to look directly at you can recite with poignant clarity Maya
Angelou's poem "I know why the caged bird sings". Our school's football
field is adorned with replicas of space rockets and our classrooms boast
only cracked chalkboards. Visiting celebrities and wealthy tourists come
and go and the dust barely shudders.
In this small valley, this upward palm of the earth, everything exists.
Demons and angels battle it out in the streets alongside small children
with shreds for shoes playing jump rope and eating hot dogs on sticks.
Sweet popcorn is sold from splintered and stained wooden half shelters
next to incense and tiny buddha's to be worn around the neck as a charm.
I am just as likely to be asked if I have any spare change as where I
wash my body. Plans are constructed out of strings as thin as the
spider's and change like the clouds slip sliding across the sky.
And what a beautiful sky it is. What an alarming Creator He is. May He
mold me into someone as capable of understanding and surviving in and
loving such contrast as those who have been in its midst all their lives
and no longer recognize the incongruities. And may He fix my stomach
that way too.
